still sick as hell
feel my nose leaking
my hands are still shaking
reeling from the aftermath barely breathing
my chest is tightening again
nothing new felt since i was 3
damn you think you'd finally recover but damn this shit too crazy
im still feeling ill
too sick to move not in a good way

i wanna get out
i did all i could but the world aint giving me back
feel like im losing it
i aint got nothing left
like everydays a nightmare
and im the only one in the dream....
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i used to be the one first in the line
went hard never stopped balling constantly excercising
not letting the breathlessness stop me
youd think my battle probably was nothing
yea i dint go to class so i could run and get a fucking 6-pac

i wanna get out
i did all i could but the world aint giving me back
feel like im losing it
i aint got nothing left
like everydays a nightmare
and im the only one in the dream....


i aint gonna feel sorry i feel my head still heay
yes my heart is aching reeling from the heart attack that i got
i aint letting that stop me
why should i give up
im gonna run this body till it run out
nobody gonna put no limitations on me
the doctor said it about time for me to stop
but i still keep pushing till god wanna take me back
fuck i aint fearing nothing
not even death
im gonna keep going hard on this bitch till my lungs give out
or jesus come to take me back into his hands

i wanna get out
i did all i could but the world aint giving me back
feel like im losing it
i aint got nothing left
like everydays a nightmare
and im the only one in the dream....

i used to dream big but now it seems to fade away
how the fuck am i supposed to know what the fucks im supposed to do
i spent my whole life trying to get the equation rite
but i seem to only fade further into the hole
the harder i go
no one really giving me a break they expecting me to be 100 even if im at 3
what the fuck am i supposed to do
no one understands my problems
i tell em they get upset
like wtf im supposed to do
everytime i open my mouth
their faces fall out

im not mr nice guy
im the guy whod fuck you straight in the face
and not care about it.
i ait gonna sugar coat shit
so you can taste it
turd straight up
no flavoring specially for you assholes
whos mouth dont seem to ever close
all these medicines and im still stuck here wheezing
no matter how many years goo by looks like im always gonna
be coughing this goo out
am praying real hard but looks like it aint being heard
guess i do ask for everything
but this is the one i really need
but no matter how many years go
it still haunts me
comes and goes as it pleases
my mind got no control no more
i aint afraid no more

time to be a revolution
all alone no one listening to my thoughts my head bobbing
this codeine aint kicking in
im trying riddlin but that shit aint helping
im still fuckin hyper
having this bitches come over

there they go
always running their mouths acting like they know it all
my last od was so long ago
i kinda miss the rush into the room where er
is the main word
then i see clooney's face now his batman again

eh look is mr hopkins eating another bitch again

looks like even id be kept for last

i feel like im on the last strike
can hear that baseball music playing
feel like it s like the last base and im too far to reach it
where the fuck im supposed to go
when no way for me to run every exit is covered with a bitch's face
not a gal just that dick with the big mouth

lived for a second what the fucks that supposed to mean
im listening to someone scream the fuck off
swamp me im listening
always keeping my mind open
people always crossing me never intending for the violence
the aftermath now thats crazy talk
got no g5 but i got bitches i can call down never dropped an album
cause nobody wanna give me a second look
got on my grind having bitches grind me down now anytime i open my mouth
people always seem to get ticked off
knowing too much seems to be a problem
wanned to have every single thing i ever seen
from that red ferrari to that lamborghini
wait does it come in cannary?
and im still trying to pop the cherry of that bitch from back when i was 14 school boy crushes
damn that shit dont go off no matter how old you grow
just gotta hit it once
pray for the fame all these dreams keep you up at night


get down on me there aint no need to be stopping
the assholes looking they always wanna have something
yea i kinda dropped out early
not gonna stop though
taught myself to be greater than that
no ones gonna stop me now

im stuck here listening a second goes by and they still bitching

how the fuck am i supposed to understand what you saying
youre mouth never stops moving all you fuckers always hating
looking down at me from the top now my head bobbing like george bush in his prime
im kinda crazy but tat aint nothing compared to those bitches looking down on me


eh eh eh
it takes about 1 2 3 there they go you can hear them screaming out loud
fuck you now
i aint no freaking legend or a man but im gonna be greater than that either
create my own word
be bigger than the mongul that had the world
the biggest empire gonna be mine and i dont really care stopping for nobody
and this gonna be my own chapter and by the time im done
let the whole world bow before me

i can brealy keep my eyes open
these late nights killing me
shes not feeling me
no idea whats going on
shes now walking out
crying telling me i aint showing her nuff attention

im trynna achieve immortality
a mile away to make it
more like a 1000 if im lucky
what am i supposed to do
stay down or let go

what the fucks wrong with you
youre asian not black get that in your head
dumb fuks cant spit no fuck shit
the only time u gonna be cumming
is when ure masturbating
how long more you gonna keep running your mouth
what kinda name u got
u kidding rite
fuck that shit u aint feeling
i have no idea what the fuck ull saying
dont quit ure dayjob
the fame and fortune you chase aint ever gonna come by with poems like that
the only thing u gonna get is flamed and dissed constantly
wake the fuck up
and please get that fake accent out
aint even been across the atlantic somehow u sound like a retard farting
fake accent more like retardation
get a life bitch grow up
how much longer u wanna get laughed at
please stop disgracing all of us

i see her face when shes gone
when shes here i feel like its alright
now i feel like its different
my lifes running around and my tummys nervous
like it is the night before anything big
i think youre coming back
i feel you flying back
learn so much from u i have
they always applaud your brain
but i have no space for that in me
i just see what you do
thats made me wiser stronger better
a little ill now
but thats alright it works out fine in the end
think i know what i gotta do now
haha
that must be y the nerves are kicking in.
ill do it soon
first the mike then the mac
then the world
all in the works of him
i shall leave self pity behind
fool no more now left
arise man renew reborn
forget the past and future plans
lets change everything else

random

Why does blogger say approximate views? cant they count?
hmmm so weird thought its digital?

my gut feels weird am nervous about something but i have no idea what!
somethings missing something!

JUST NEEDED TO WRITE SOMETHING FOR ME TO READ

i wonder how many people actually have ever seen this blog,
i think its me and Nadia who gets excited every time i write some nonsense!
oh well at least there's on person!
that's better than none!!!
and i just heard a song which is the kinda song that freaking gay but makes u feel good.

i read a column in Elle today it was so weird ah
and no i don't buy Elle. Nadia had it!
its amazing how a guy actually wrote the column! he has to be either a gal acting as a guy or a gal who's real name is Alexis and wrote Alex, cause lets face it which metro sexual guy would love a mini cooper, and for all logical reasons known to man WHO ON EARTH WOULD GET HORNY OVER TINA FEY????
shes the kinda fall in love with definately not a school boy crush type!!!
GEEZ

BTW LIFE SUCKS!!!!