hellooo, well this week has gone by really fast. got back my results, and they really sucked. oh well better than last years i guess.hmmmm moving on yesterday was kinda long but fun though. well went to school in the morning, and it was supposed to end at 4
but the damn lecturer dint show up at 2. if she had just told us earlier i would have gone home at 12. oh well. so i met joy after school, wanting to play pool. but yesterday being Friday everywhere in bukit timah was full.so we ended up sitting in macs and talking cock. after which went to meet the person who i sadly see almost everyday ahahhahahaha sorry! so we hung out and i finally gotta play pool. hmmm why is it that i always run into divian arun and sharmine whenever i go out with Nadia. so weird. its like wen i go out with other people i never run into them but then when i hang with her their always there. oh well so i finally got home at 12 and i left home at like 730 in the morning. thank god i could finally sleep!
Friday, June 29, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
hello
well so i have finally got back to the gym. took toolong a break i think.anyhow so life's back to normal school and home and well going out and the occasional going to work. hmmm gymming again sounds fun to me. anyhow im not emo and neither is the stuff i write. its just you know creative. hmmmm you know i think i should really tell people i have a blog. cause like only 4 or5 people know i have one kinda funny i guess. sooooooo tmr madina says shes gonna take me to some place called tea party. earlier she said shes gonna was at tea party, and i thought it was a tea party.was kinda funny actually. and my darn bro keeps telling writing comments on how i take steriods. knn stop it aaron. people actually think i really take em thanks to you. anyhow thats all for now so ciao!
Monday, June 25, 2007
hmmm well i acted for the first time on friday, and i kinda forgot a line. but its ok cause like no one noticed. and to whoever reads this i do not sasshay! does anyonw have the song clothes off by gym class heroes?
anyhow as i was gonna say schools started oh well what difference, i had school everday during the hols.
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
let life go on i dunnoe wad im talking about i dont feel lie riting rite now
so ciao!
anyhow as i was gonna say schools started oh well what difference, i had school everday during the hols.
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
let life go on i dunnoe wad im talking about i dont feel lie riting rite now
so ciao!
Thursday, June 21, 2007
how u feel
is it pretty and joyful
or the pitifulness of what u have become
do the lies you tell make you perfect
or does it make you sad
do you feel sad everytime you open your eyes
or does it make u happy
how did you look into my eyes
with all those lies
does it make you feel good to know im gone
each day passes without my thinking of your touch
its like the emptiness the feeling of the unholy thoughts
i wish you'd just leave me alone
but you keep haunting me with memories of the past
this time i know its over i keep telling itll be the last
but it never ends no matter how hard i try
why dont u just leave and go
why cant i just be along
why do u have to stay
why did u say
why did u have to stay
why did u have to stay
is it pretty and joyful
or the pitifulness of what u have become
do the lies you tell make you perfect
or does it make you sad
do you feel sad everytime you open your eyes
or does it make u happy
how did you look into my eyes
with all those lies
does it make you feel good to know im gone
each day passes without my thinking of your touch
its like the emptiness the feeling of the unholy thoughts
i wish you'd just leave me alone
but you keep haunting me with memories of the past
this time i know its over i keep telling itll be the last
but it never ends no matter how hard i try
why dont u just leave and go
why cant i just be along
why do u have to stay
why did u say
why did u have to stay
why did u have to stay
the truth hurts
so well i was thinking about what someone or well what 2 people said yesterday or what i think was yesterday. i am never serious. is it true? well anyhow i asked another friend just now, and he said i was never serious either. its quite strange how i have changed, i am never serious no matter what. crap! maybe i should stop being playful and start becoming serious. but then i think ill be boring. but hmmmm........
i dunoe maybe being serious and being matured is fun. well if it is i dunnoe
shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so screwed up
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i dunoe maybe being serious and being matured is fun. well if it is i dunnoe
shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so screwed up
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
its getting to me
well the days have been very long of late and im starting to despise waking up in the morning. i used to miss getting dreams and nightmares, but now they dont seem to stop. its like everyone keeps dying in my dream. itll be kinda freaky if it was true. think im not getting enough sleep. i needa let out steam soon! anyhow maybe a run should do it well hopefully. getting tired of going to school constantly. it seems like there is no hols. its not as fun as i thought it would be well hope that it will be sooooooon.
for fucks sake will it end soon, why dont i die in my dreams i wanna leave earth!
for fucks sake will it end soon, why dont i die in my dreams i wanna leave earth!
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
stay
said u dont gotta go
this aint the end
i wish there was more
but maybe this is it
you dont have to leave
you dont gotta walk out the door
if u stay for just another night
ill love you like theres no more
we can hold each other
to the break of dawn
u can hold me tight
like your in love
or carelessly caress me
like i was as important as he
but it ends there
i wish it didn't
but its not up to us
if fate was so kind to show me another life
i'd hold you close before i leave
and breathe down your neck
and hope you fall for me for just that one time
i'd hold that second for the rest of time
like everything meant nothing.
its become so lonely without you
tell me its gonna end
cause this has gotta die
or ill be held in this emptiness forever
this aint the end
i wish there was more
but maybe this is it
you dont have to leave
you dont gotta walk out the door
if u stay for just another night
ill love you like theres no more
we can hold each other
to the break of dawn
u can hold me tight
like your in love
or carelessly caress me
like i was as important as he
but it ends there
i wish it didn't
but its not up to us
if fate was so kind to show me another life
i'd hold you close before i leave
and breathe down your neck
and hope you fall for me for just that one time
i'd hold that second for the rest of time
like everything meant nothing.
its become so lonely without you
tell me its gonna end
cause this has gotta die
or ill be held in this emptiness forever
Sunday, June 17, 2007
empty
woke up on the floor from last night
and she was gone
all i could see was the empty light of dawn
i knew now that she was out
all i could feel was your little touch
the sadness it overcomes the joy
of what was meant to be an empty heart
if i had seen you just for the last time
i would have held so dear and close
feeling ur every touch was more then
i could hope
but now its all gone im just an empty vessel
oh how i wished it was all just a dream
and how u left means nothing to me
but now its over and i want you to return
from this empty dream
and she was gone
all i could see was the empty light of dawn
i knew now that she was out
all i could feel was your little touch
the sadness it overcomes the joy
of what was meant to be an empty heart
if i had seen you just for the last time
i would have held so dear and close
feeling ur every touch was more then
i could hope
but now its all gone im just an empty vessel
oh how i wished it was all just a dream
and how u left means nothing to me
but now its over and i want you to return
from this empty dream
Friday, June 15, 2007
random thing
You might agree with
it, but when it actually happens 96%
of girls dont realize it 'til it is
too late and that guy who did it is so
frustrated that he has moved on to
someone who will take notice.
From a guys point of view:
We don't care if you talk to other
guys.
We don't care if you're friends with
other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and
some random guy walks into the room and
you jump up and tackle him, without
even introducing us, yeah, it pisses
us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and
talk to him for ten minutes without
even acknowledging the fact that we're
still there.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but
at 2 in the morning we do get a little
concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
that it can't wait till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/
beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/stunning, we
freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
One of the sexiest thing about a girl
is her confidence.
Don't be mad when we hold the door
open.
Take Advantage of the mood i'm in.
let us pay for you! dont "feel bad"
about it
We enjoy doing it. It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you."
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's
looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for
us.
If we're going out with you in the
first place, you don't have to feel
the need to wear the shortest skirt
you have or put on every kind of
makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not
what you are.
honestly, i think a girl looks more
beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
or my tshirt and boxers, not all
dolled up
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the
beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your
bible.
Don't talk about how hott Morris
Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney
is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You
have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word
"handsome"/"beautiful"
Girls, I cannot stress this enough:if
you aren't being treated right by a
guy, dont wait for him to
change. ditch him.
sorry, disgrace to the male population
ass and find someone who will treat you
with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when
you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when
you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter
how bad you make them feel, or what
you do.
Someone who will stop what theyre doing
just to look you in the eyes....and say
"i love you". and actually mean it.
Give the nice guys a chance
Tips for the less experienced:
*Holdin Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand,
gently bump into it a couple of
times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than
once.
*Cuddling
Girls : When you want to cuddle with
him, tell him you're cold
Guys : Automatically move closer to
her.
*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his
arm around you, tilt your head on his
shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.
*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves
you,
look deep into her eyes, give her a
peck
on the lips, and tell her you love her
too... And mean it.
*Laying below the stars
Girls : When you're both laying under
the stars, put your head on his chest
and close your eyes as you listen to
his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your
hands with hers.
well i thought this was rather interesting, someone posted it on frenster
hmmmm..................
drama seems to be taking up time, the most active i have ever been in school!
oh well
it, but when it actually happens 96%
of girls dont realize it 'til it is
too late and that guy who did it is so
frustrated that he has moved on to
someone who will take notice.
From a guys point of view:
We don't care if you talk to other
guys.
We don't care if you're friends with
other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and
some random guy walks into the room and
you jump up and tackle him, without
even introducing us, yeah, it pisses
us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and
talk to him for ten minutes without
even acknowledging the fact that we're
still there.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but
at 2 in the morning we do get a little
concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
that it can't wait till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/
beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/stunning, we
freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
One of the sexiest thing about a girl
is her confidence.
Don't be mad when we hold the door
open.
Take Advantage of the mood i'm in.
let us pay for you! dont "feel bad"
about it
We enjoy doing it. It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you."
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's
looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for
us.
If we're going out with you in the
first place, you don't have to feel
the need to wear the shortest skirt
you have or put on every kind of
makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not
what you are.
honestly, i think a girl looks more
beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
or my tshirt and boxers, not all
dolled up
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the
beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your
bible.
Don't talk about how hott Morris
Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney
is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You
have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word
"handsome"/"beautiful"
Girls, I cannot stress this enough:if
you aren't being treated right by a
guy, dont wait for him to
change. ditch him.
sorry, disgrace to the male population
ass and find someone who will treat you
with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when
you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when
you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter
how bad you make them feel, or what
you do.
Someone who will stop what theyre doing
just to look you in the eyes....and say
"i love you". and actually mean it.
Give the nice guys a chance
Tips for the less experienced:
*Holdin Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand,
gently bump into it a couple of
times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than
once.
*Cuddling
Girls : When you want to cuddle with
him, tell him you're cold
Guys : Automatically move closer to
her.
*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his
arm around you, tilt your head on his
shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.
*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves
you,
look deep into her eyes, give her a
peck
on the lips, and tell her you love her
too... And mean it.
*Laying below the stars
Girls : When you're both laying under
the stars, put your head on his chest
and close your eyes as you listen to
his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your
hands with hers.
well i thought this was rather interesting, someone posted it on frenster
hmmmm..................
drama seems to be taking up time, the most active i have ever been in school!
oh well
Thursday, June 14, 2007
waiting for the 7.18
well so when i thought id finally have friends from school to hang out with, besides my classmates i thought heck its gonna be fun, but hmmm lately it seems to with just one person, crap!
but it aint that bad i mean its kinda fun hanging. but my other friends have disappeared, i have never hung out wid someone for 5 days in a row kinda new actually, but fun still. at least i wont be only crazy person around then!
anyhow so i have invited 3 people to watch me act in wad appears to be only 1 scence for now. hmmmm i dont think theyll laugh and now my sister is coming as well.
i miss running and wanting to go and do real boxing, and all the sporty things i wanted to do.
i have changed alot this past year, well actuall since school started.and alot in my life has changed as well, people who were close are non existent quite sad to think about it. oh well thats life!
anyhow gotta go meet my only crazy friend in abit. and yes shawn you are my real friend.
well ciao for now
but it aint that bad i mean its kinda fun hanging. but my other friends have disappeared, i have never hung out wid someone for 5 days in a row kinda new actually, but fun still. at least i wont be only crazy person around then!
anyhow so i have invited 3 people to watch me act in wad appears to be only 1 scence for now. hmmmm i dont think theyll laugh and now my sister is coming as well.
i miss running and wanting to go and do real boxing, and all the sporty things i wanted to do.
i have changed alot this past year, well actuall since school started.and alot in my life has changed as well, people who were close are non existent quite sad to think about it. oh well thats life!
anyhow gotta go meet my only crazy friend in abit. and yes shawn you are my real friend.
well ciao for now
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Friday, June 8, 2007
CRAP!
well the exams are finally over, i sat at the school bus stop after for like 2hours talking, ahhaah and i dint realise the time, oh well
saw sanjay on the bus been awhile since i saw him, his grown a lot taller, and then i became shoert again crap!!!!!!!
hmmm well tonight was really stunning. at like 530 i pictured myself sleeping in bed by 9, my legs were aching from all the squats! who knew going to a church dudes house would end up in me drinking so much of wine! its wherever i go quite sad to think of it. hmmm well saw a bunch of people from my primary school there, so dint expect that. anyhow after being sent home by a very nice person, saw my brothers, and half of the shunfu people there. its quite weird, suddenly not feeling like ur wud ur own anymore. its like im a stranger now like i dont matter anymore oh well, should have gotten used to that. guess the niceness would only last for awhile should have known better.
quite sad to think about it. oh well guess thats my life. well ciao for now
saw sanjay on the bus been awhile since i saw him, his grown a lot taller, and then i became shoert again crap!!!!!!!
hmmm well tonight was really stunning. at like 530 i pictured myself sleeping in bed by 9, my legs were aching from all the squats! who knew going to a church dudes house would end up in me drinking so much of wine! its wherever i go quite sad to think of it. hmmm well saw a bunch of people from my primary school there, so dint expect that. anyhow after being sent home by a very nice person, saw my brothers, and half of the shunfu people there. its quite weird, suddenly not feeling like ur wud ur own anymore. its like im a stranger now like i dont matter anymore oh well, should have gotten used to that. guess the niceness would only last for awhile should have known better.
quite sad to think about it. oh well guess thats my life. well ciao for now
Thursday, June 7, 2007
dead!
hello everyone another day gone and another day i died in school, the tests seemed to just get harder, not like last years papers. god knows what the schools trying to do. oh well i guess im dead tmr again.anyhow well today went by soo fast, i woke up went to school and came home, and it was 7 already its like the day just went by and i have no idea what happened. it was like that in the exam hall as well 1 second its started and then the next its over. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
well im just hoping tmr is like the paper the lecturer gave us for once.hmmm everyone seems to think it was hard cept for maybe one or two people.well guess i gotta studay for my last paper cant wait for 12 freaking 30 tmr. then itll be over and 2 weeks of holidays!
anyhow gotta study now for tmr
so ciao
well im just hoping tmr is like the paper the lecturer gave us for once.hmmm everyone seems to think it was hard cept for maybe one or two people.well guess i gotta studay for my last paper cant wait for 12 freaking 30 tmr. then itll be over and 2 weeks of holidays!
anyhow gotta study now for tmr
so ciao
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
hello people, today= second day of death with the common tests.i think tomorrow will be alot better well hopefully.anyhow todayat school people were staring at me weirdly. wads wrong with licking ice cream,and the jelly thing got really looong.it looked interesting though. kinda felt weird having something so long go into my mouth and down my throat.
hmmm, kinda like never mind ahhahahah.
anyhow i did some of del, bloody borin seems altir, so long i can use my calculator to anser everything.well 2 days left and then 2 weeks of HOLIDAYS, i never thought that that word would ever sound so good. anyhow i needa get back to my books so ciao for now
hmmm, kinda like never mind ahhahahah.
anyhow i did some of del, bloody borin seems altir, so long i can use my calculator to anser everything.well 2 days left and then 2 weeks of HOLIDAYS, i never thought that that word would ever sound so good. anyhow i needa get back to my books so ciao for now
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
hmmmm...... hello everyone
hello, well after 3 years of contemplating wether or not to have one these online blog thingys, a friend of mine called madina who was super bored said shell make one for me. well she should thank me cause i kinda gave
her something to do. hahahahHAHAhah ok fine i noe ur nice.
so im wondering who on earth is gonna really read this.anyhow im alexander felix and i dont noe y im lifeless.
well basically ill be 18 soon, and i realise that life has come to be boring and pointless. im really fat, kinda got no hair and ageing too fast i look like im 52.
ok fine neither of those are true, shit im bored!
maybe i am lifeless, well today was interesting, it involved me sticking my hand into a very small hole and pulling something out, not smtin i wanna do again,hahahahaa.
anyhow seeing how i have no idea wad else to write, i shall rite an interesting post on saturday or sunday when im surely to have passed out and cane remember much, well ill try to write wad i can remember!
well ciao for now!
her something to do. hahahahHAHAhah ok fine i noe ur nice.
so im wondering who on earth is gonna really read this.anyhow im alexander felix and i dont noe y im lifeless.
well basically ill be 18 soon, and i realise that life has come to be boring and pointless. im really fat, kinda got no hair and ageing too fast i look like im 52.
ok fine neither of those are true, shit im bored!
maybe i am lifeless, well today was interesting, it involved me sticking my hand into a very small hole and pulling something out, not smtin i wanna do again,hahahahaa.
anyhow seeing how i have no idea wad else to write, i shall rite an interesting post on saturday or sunday when im surely to have passed out and cane remember much, well ill try to write wad i can remember!
well ciao for now!
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